when the sky is right.

it starts with a text, "I'll miss you"

because he's leaving the state

invites me over, this is not a date

now closer than ever to all you wished us to be

ironic to hear you say, "I'm sorry, I was so mean"

making your sincere pleas, you feel so lowly

I assure you, I'm not angry, I'm just me

maybe winter air will bring you clarity?

when you sit alone with your beer, your guitar

you'll find peace there.

my hope for you is to let go of your anger

that your hatred won't infect you like a cancer

looking back and wondering what if...

doesn't do you justice

so keep your head high, please

and keep me in mind

because when the sky is right

and the planets are aligned

we'll see each other again 

...& we'll smile.

fading.

I was so intrigued by you, but now able to see through the transparency of your being

hanging on words spun by others, you live to be a martyr, to be a king to a female like her

but you can't build your castle on moon beams. 

and you're drowning in wine, yet taunt yourself, "watch me take it further."

no one to have that uncomfortable conversation, to tell you that your light is fading.

you can't outrun your creativity by numbing your brain with whiskey,

The lines get too blurry, Your aggression is just so heavy

I could be someone to listen, but I refuse to submit myself to your level

I've already risen from the ashes of my own self-created hell

You could come out stronger, if you tried

If you could reach for the music instead of the alcohol, 

because all that poison does is lie.

The moon is falling down.

Music like this gets me through the day. Stay calm and positive my friends. You are all in my tribe.

xo,

  SS

poison ring

in a world where so much is not what it seems,

people kiss your lips but curse you while you sleep,

where lovers love to keep secrets from each other,

telling little lies that reap grave consequences,

this is why I wear my poison ring

rainbow moonstone gem, I always keep

when this world is too much to bear

I know I have my venom stored there

I'll drink it in haste, never questioning this

I can't exist in a world so full of hatred

I choose to take no part of it.

natural.

standing in stagnant air

waiting for you on a bench there

not really nervous nor anxious

just in the moment, wind in my hair

your steps come closer

& we exchange "hellos"

suddenly stranger feels natural.

Happy New Moon!

Happy New (Dark) Moon in Virgo! 

"The New Moon is actually between the Earth and the Sun so it is hidden from view at this time. This is the beginning of the Lunar cycle and is a rebirth and regeneration of energy. Great stones to work with to embrace change and new beginnings are Green Aventurine, Moonstone, Ruby and Citrine. Carry these with you and whisper your intentions into them. You may feel more creative and inspired during this phase." (Source: Pinterest) Look at your astrological birth chart to see where the Virgo dark moon is working in your life today. There will be two sectors, the house of Virgo and it's opposing sign's house, Pisces, where this new moon energy will be felt. If you have questions, don't hesitate to ask me! Otherwise, just write down a list of your desires, imagine what it feel like if you already had said desires & release your wishes to the universe as this is the best time to consciously set forth your intentions.

Namaste.

Camp Chesterfield

Today's adventure was a visit to Camp Chesterfield. Mike told me about this place yesterday, so we made an afternoon trip out to tour the grounds today. The air was thick & humid, but thankfully there was a slight breeze & the shade from all the trees was accomodating.

Camp Chesterfield is a spiritualist camp that was founded in 1886. The grounds have a prayer garden, which is a stone cave, there is a memory garden with a beautiful fountain, a pyramid, a labyrinth and a totem pole. I visited the bookstore briefly where they sell books on varying topics from astrology and tarot to yoga to spiritualism.

While walking through the camp, you can see lots of the houses are lived in by several mediums, psychics and healers. The energy of this camp is incredibly peaceful and intriguing as well as mystical & romantic. I can't wait to return for a second trip.

passion and apathy

yours is a sea of uncertainty

the ripples intrigue me

but it's murky

and I'd like to know why

I've swam in darker rivers

that pulled me under with the tide

I'm not adventurous that way now

I'm less likely to trust that watery beauty

I like the ground I'm standing on

the soil has made it's connection to me

show me the balance between passion and apathy

somewhere in you there is a peculiar curiosity

but you seem more self interested than loving

& energetically I can't expose myself to that

little angel.

I exercise so much caution

Little angel by my side

& his big brown eyes guide me

Who would have known this sweet soul,

a little baby, born unto me

Would be my soul's teacher

The one who breathed life into me?

pheonix rising

please don't get confused

these doe eyes aren't pretty for you

& I am less than concerned with being

your inspiration, your dainty, little muse

I don't tolerate many things

& fleeting affection tops the list

because fickle minded boys,

honey, in my world they don't exist

don't let my soft skin fool you

or the curls around my face

I burn hotter than a furnace

& I'll sever our situation

with a smile upon my face

let this be your warning

heed this caution as if it were the last

I realize my demeanor is alarming

but I'm not apologetic

I've been appointed by mother Earth herself

to this Phoenix-rising, diamond status

for all the chapters full of bullshit I've surpassed

feelings can change.

you don't want me

you just want the attention

trying your hand at several girls

I think you need an intervention

I used to be naive

but I don't play those cards anymore

I might flirt with you 

but just as quickly, I'll leave you at the door

you like everyone 

and honey I'm not that dumb.

the great things about feelings is

that they so often change

I'm accelerating ....

& you're just spinning wheels

ripples

you've sent ripples right through my soul

I had planted seeds of love inside there

but you've made them grow.

king of cups.

is it you?
too good to be true?
I wouldn't know because
I've been known to be a little fool

the cards show me,
king of cups...
I guess I have to stop pretending now
that I don't want you.

                                                                                                      ...to be continued.

poison

what countless ways you'd make me feel crazy,
pointing your bloody, calloused fingers at me,
gas-lighting to never expose your own behavior
crying crocodile tears, a heavy weight embedded in my chest,
I never felt safe with you,
every day was a new test

who knows what brought us together?
now you say I'm to blame
so sensitive and crazy,
and now I refuse to speak your name

I pity you, poor soul so lost,
too disturbed to see your own role
and while I crawled to face my demons
you'd strike me down, preferring to see me fall

but what great light I found
in consoling my own spirit
clearing me of your heavy words
your negativity was fine crafted poison in a goblet

you promised me security,
but your "haven" was more like hell
and I am so relieved to find
that your hostility I've learned to dispel

hmmm

usually, typically.

usually I would dwell on wanting more,

typically I would look forward to a repeat

but today I am lingering in the tenderness 

of how I felt when your lips touched my face.

selenite: calming, clarifying stone.

I keep a little, purple bag of gemstones at work. I bought them when I started my job here at the law office in the Spring. I really wanted my transition of going back to legal work to go smoothly. For my work environment I chose desert rose, jade, rose quartz, mookaite, citrine, lapis lazuli & selenite. I also bought a Himalayan salt candle burner which I may discuss in a later post.
Today I feel compelled to discuss Selenite. This stone is considered a "cousin" to moonstone (my favorite stone), as they are both stones associated with the moon.

The name Selenite comes from the Greek word "Selene" which means moon. The stone is very soft and scratches easily. I find it very soothing. I really love the pearly, translucent look. This stone is protective and aids with mental clarity for better decision making.  Selenite is very powerful and should be used with good intentions for healing purposes and seeking understanding of situations which are confusing. This stone is beneficial for mothers and women who are pregnant. Selenite raises your intuition, psychic and clairvoyant abilities. Selenite is used in meditation to reach a higher vibration, attracting guidance from the Spirit world. During meditation this stone should be used with a grounding stone such as black tourmaline or tiger's eye to keep one connected to the Earth realm.

Selenite is among my favorite stones & I mainly use it for the soothing effects and to aid my decision making. I highly recommend this stone for beginning crystal users to enhance your mental clarity and keep your emotions calm and in check.

xo

I want to know

I want to know the titles of the books you read,

the music you're listening to when you fall asleep

I would like to hear the silly things spoken when you're tipsy

and I want to know all the passing thoughts you've thought of me

your sweet, intense eyes say so much

sensing the longing in you, I attempt to reach you

"I'm not afraid" you say

So then, Aquarius, what keeps you away?

I want to know your favorite get-away place

the person you reach out to when you wanna hide your face

I would like to learn what your touch feels like

and I want to know what compelled you to ask permission to kiss my cheek tonight

Intro to gemstones

Top 2 photos: 2 boxes of my gemstones. The first box contains: jasper, jade, rhodochrosite, rose quartz, selenite, malachite, black tourmaline & two stones whose names escape me at the moment

The second box contains: clear quartz, phantom (rutilated) quartz, blood stone, sun stone, orange citrine, aqua aura, amethyst, angelite, moonstone and a few more whose names escape me.

The bottom book is THE book I recommend for beginning crystal/stone collectors. This book is very resourceful, easy to read and gives astrological info with each stone, what number it vibrates to and the metaphysical uses of each stone. There are no photos, so for those who prefer a book with pictures to reference, I recommend the "Crystal Bible". It is a mini handbook that can easily be put into a bag and it has pictures of each stone as well as a description.

FAQ's that I get:

Why do you use gemstones?

At first, I simply found them to be a nice aesthetic for my room. I was drawn to them and I began to collect them. I love the various textures and colors. Once I started researching them, I began to use them for meditative purposes. I also use them in my full and new moon practices. I fill up the tub with warm water, my favorite oils, rose petals, light candles and place the stones that "call" to me around the tub, turn on my meditative music and just allow myself to BE. 

What is your favorite stone?

Moonstone. There are various types. I have regular moonstone, rainbow, blue and pink moonstone. I've also seen peach colored moonstone. This stone has been my favorite since I was 16 & was the first stone I ever acquired. I got it in a locket ring in an Autumn festival near my hometown. I will cherish it forever. Soon I will post all my moonstone pieces for you to see. I love the pearly, iridescent appearance, it carries a very mysterious intrigue to it. Moonstone, obviously for it's name, is associated with the moon, with feminine energy and is known to aid in balancing ones' emotions, it is a calming stone.

I hope you enjoyed my intro to gemstones. I'm certainly no expert, but I am a lover of stones and love to share what I do know to help others on their spiritual paths.

Friday evening in

My evening pleasures:

A new book, my 1st book on psychic development

Peppermint tea with raw, local, organic honey

New Moldavite oil (it has a fragment of the stone at the bottom!)

And new meditation candles in the colors that appealed to me today. Color is important as it has symbolic meaning to it :) 

Happy Friday evening in loves 

xx

a moth named Peter

a cluster of dusty winged creatures

gathered around your front door lamp

their powdery patterns intrigue me so

giddily naming each one "Peter",

never knowing which are male or female

sweet, enchanting critters, so peculiar and frail

crawling across my knuckles, 

I observe one's tiny body

this little being sparks my empathy

diosa, reina, yo

yo soy la diosa

y bajo la luna

bailo como loca

yo soy la reina

y me quieren acercar

tantas veces he rechazado

esos que me quieren admirar

no les tengo buena respuesta

simplemente soy como soy

y en todo el ruido

yo encuentro mi silencio

eso es mi poder, todo lo supero

y nadie cambiará mi forma

lo que ves...pues, yo soy yo

I am the goddess

& under the moon

I dance like a lunatic

I am the queen

they want to come near me

so many times I've rejected 

those who wish to admire me

I don't have a good answer for them

just that I am the way I am

& in all the noise

I encounter my silence

that is my power, I overcome all

& no one will change my ways

what you see...well, I am who I am

pearl

"sit still pretty eyes"

well I can't!, I'll tell you that

too restless for my own good

so many things to try, to dabble in,

I've no mind for senseless talk

I hate the word "independent"

but I suppose I really am

I despise being labeled

I'm more than just a pearl inside the clam

enduring all the pressure,

never keeping score

& there's nothing I would alter

because you have to experience chaos

...to finally learn to soar

tumblr.

you can find me on tumblr now too.

viking king

talking to the viking king

formidable to many, but not to me

I've laid beside him & his insecurities

he calls me when he needs to speak

we lay a while & the truth is released

he seems so solid to all of them

but he shares with me, his lady feminine

I only come sometimes, when it's suitable for me

& I hush his lips when he speaks of what we could be

he may be a king, but not for this restless gypsy

I need water to swim & time alone with my whiskey

tell him I couldn't make him happy in the end

but against my will, he continues to contend

barbed wire

I doubt I'll ever forget 

the way you grabbed me as I left the bar

you were talking to your bearded friend

but you grabbed me & pulled me in

"you're leaving?" 

I was sort of startled, but more than pleased

I loved the way you embraced me

a tinge of control entangled with desperation

every night since then the theme was hesitation

I grew weary of waiting

so short those months & so ardent

you stayed on the other side of your barbed wire

and here I remain, dancing in blue fire

little fool.

what a little fool I used to be,

thinking there was something special in the way you looked at me

gazing at you & anticipating your touch,

all I know is I've never wanted anyone so much

despite the end of winter, you remained colder

no more solid rock, not my leaning shoulder

so I packed up all the emotions that I had

and I left you even though it made me sad

lovely water

she bathes in lovely water, 

immersing herself in the fears and the calm

the cruel Earth can't cure her anxiety

but lovely water washes the suffering away

when the moon light is just right

she sinks lower into the midnight

alone, but unafraid

"this is my element,

I am a part of it"

where she only tiptoed before,

now she runs right in

no looking backwards anymore

this is healing restored

if I had known you then.

if I had known you then,

maybe I would've stayed away?

but knowing me, babe

I'd probably ignore my instincts,

I never obey

your handsome eyes

the sweet way you wake me

if I had known you then,

nothing could've kept me from you,

not even an army

ironic, this course of life

the way we dance around our needs

dropping hints to others, 

hoping they will intercede

silver lining

what a heavy feeling. my head aches, my stomach is reeling.

when at every turn, you point out all that's wrong with me.

I want to find peace, to go where I'm alone... finally.

I can't share this house, your list of grievances weighs on me

& I started thinking it isn't me at all, 

some underlying cause you've got going on

but absorbing your emotions is something I can no longer tolerate

so I wish you well, I'll be on my way

I always find my silver lining, my hope radiates.

the dream begins.

when I lay down, thoughts rise up like a wave

if I suppress them, I become their slave

so lately I've gently let them in

& when I change my perspective,

the dream begins.

This.

Thunder

you be the sun.

Lost cause

I've yet to meet a man who can match my intensity,
who isn't offended by my spark,
who likes to watch me burn,
who's proud of me when I shine,
and doesn't want to punish me

I don't know how to "dial it down"
I can't "relax", like they suggest
why does my nature offend you?
when it's clearly nothing personal
I'm wired this way, it's natural

you don't want me quiet
because it offends you
you don't want me verbal
because it offends you
Oh lord, let the chaos begin

believe me, it perplexes me too
to be so seethingly passionate
so if I just look at you & walk away
It's because I'm so sure that the cause is lost.

I am mine.

detachment.

amethyst caves in dreams so sweet

these healing waters make me pure

flower mandalas & the scent of peppermint

small, natural treasures that keep me grounded

I found myself wallowing in a negative emotion

I get swept away by them, like I'm lost in the ocean

but when I'm aware of it, I detach myself from it

and all is well again...

for now.